Thursday, March 31, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Dumbass irrational me went to the previous mentioned guys house to get him to ask me to marry him. If there was a ring. It would have happened tonight.
So currently we are "together" and I'm not engaged to an army man, I'm not hereby pregnant tonight. But I'm "together" with someone I don't really want to be with unless he can marry me and give mr children.
But of course now I'm stuck. Yes I know This is all my fault. Damnitt. Why do I do these thingsto myself?
I'm currency at his house as well, wishing I could just be like "nevermind! Sorry! See ya!" but I can't. I've already gotten this poor guys hopes up and promised all this shit and dug y hole wayyyyy deep.
Great. FML.
Manda
Monday, March 28, 2011
Desperate
Honestly I wish finding a soulmate was MUCH easier. I just want to get married and have kids damnitt. But i cant just choose anybody. I want someone who I can legitimately start a family with. Move in with and we can build a home. I want to fall in love and be the perfect housewife and become a mother.
Being anxious isn't helping me. I guess since my ex and I broke up I've kinda gotten this feeling that...finding your soulmate takes a long time, so I better start now. I dont want to wait until im 40 to get married and start a family. I want to be in my 20's. call me crazy but thats just what I want.
Ive gotten over trying to get my ex back. that'll never happen anyway. He clearly doesnt want me OR what i want anymore. So I'm just accepting it and moving on. TRYING TO AT LEAST.
All these online dating sites are free to sign up for yes, but you cant freaking talk to anyone unless you pay like 30 dollars a month. what the hell is that. Thats another phone bill is what that is!
I do have this friend who is crazy about me. he, ironically, wants the same things i do. and he actually wants them with me. so you think "well why not get with him dumbass?!" well, he smokes, I hate smoking. he is short, strongly dislike people shorter than me. He's not very attractive, my daughter better look damn good when she's born..I'm all about baby makin but they gotta come out as cute babies. yeah i know this all sounds shallow but still. im not into this guy at all or i would just tell him to marry me today. because i know he would.
trust me, im doing my investigative work though. dont ask about that one, ill explain later if i find out anything good...or bad.....
im just a girl who wants a fairy tale ending. PLEASEEEE!!!!!!!!
Manda
Go ahead and tell me I'm not ready or tell me I'm too young. I don't care. This is m dream. Seriously my dream. To be the perfect susie homemaker housewife. if somebody I was into proposed to me right now.. And it were posible for us to move into together I would SOO say yes.
Sorry. Blurt moment.
Manda
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Everyone follow her blog it's pretty cool called First In Philly
Currently I'm sitting on the couch watching house. I love this show. And I love house. He cracks me up. It's rare that you meet someone with a good dry sense of humor.
I do wish I could post pictures while on my phone.. I snap so many pictures with my iPhone during the day. I wouldn't deffinately let you guys see my new tattoo.
Speaking of.. Turned out good for what we got finished.. But we DIDN'T finish is the thing
Gotta do it in two sittings
I sat there for about two and a half hours and still has about another hour to go and we just decided to go ahead and quit for the night and I would just come back.
It was starting to get really tender anyway.
It doesn't really hurt now.. It's sore for sure but not too bad. My foot tar was way worse.
*sigh..I should probably sleep..and charge my phone. More so the second one..
Night all
Manda
Everyone follow her blog it's pretty cool called First In Philly
Currently I'm sitting on the couch watching house. I love this show. And I love house. He cracks me up. It's rare that you meet someone with a good dry sense of humor.
I do wish I could post pictures while on my phone.. I snap so many pictures with my iPhone during the day. I wouldn't deffinately let you guys see my new tattoo.
Speaking of.. Turned out good for what we got finished.. But we DIDN'T finish is the thing
Gotta do it in two sittings
I sat there for about two and a half hours and still has about another hour to go and we just decided to go ahead and quit for the night and I would just come back.
It was starting to get really tender anyway.
It doesn't really hurt now.. It's sore for sure but not too bad. My foot tar was way worse.
*sigh..I should probably sleep..and charge my phone. More so the second one..
Night all
Manda
Friday, March 25, 2011
Manda
Newly tatted (almost)
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Followers?
Manda
She's So Dead to Us
Manda
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
sitting in an oven
My house is a 3 bed 2 bath with a bonus room above the 2 car garage and an unfinished basement. My room is the bonus room. Its the biggest bedroom in the whole house and I definately have my privacy up here but the downfall is obviously that its always sooooo hott up here. AND the fact that I feel like i have to walk a mile to the bathroom sometimes. Sometimes I wish I could trade my mother bedrooms. nice jacoozi tub..big ass closet you could party in..the room isnt that big and its in the center of the house, but i think i could deal with that. its a pros and cons kind of thing. but obviously, she paid for this house and my step dad moved in with us, so they get that room by default. walking up and down the stairs to my room is probably the most exercise I get. which is probably one of the reasons its good that im up here.
but back to the real problem..its freaking 86 degrees in here!!! WTF. in the winter i usually just open my window and let the cold air blow in. since my two ceiling fans dont do much justice other than blowing around all the warm air. but now that its march its starting to get warm and even though im positive its not 86 outside, it'll just feel the same if i choose to open the window. one time i thought about maybe getting one of those window air conditioner thingies..but my window is definately the main focus of the house other than the garage and that just wouldnt look right. plus im sure its against the neighborhood rules just like everything else.
our neighborhood has those rules that like are completely useless and are only written to take up space. in most neighborhoods that have rules they have like this pamphlet that they just pass out to all the residents. our pamphlet is longer than the encyclopedia rather than being 10 pages or less like normal. The rules that are more concrete are the ones like, dont park on the street, you must park in the driveway. and you arent allowed to have campaign signs in your front yard. you also arent allowed to have boats or trailors. I take back the concrete comment. these are just stupid. if i want to park on the street so im not blocked in, get over it. and my now exboyfriend is running for public office, so you best believe that ill have his damn sign that I DESIGNED in my front yard. once again, get over it. you also arent allowed to have yard sales. when we first moved in we combined two complete households (ours and my new step dads) into this one and there were things from years beyond. my little brother is 8 and we still had things like his baby clothes, basinet, and baby toys. but halfway during our yard sale we found out that we arent allowed to have one. appearantly the whole neighborhood has a "neighborhood yard sale" once a year in june and thats the only time we're allowed to have it. but did we pack up and wait till june?? NOPE. my mom practices that "try to stop me" attitude. its not like we could get evicted or anything (dont think so at least) i mean because we own our house. but..they could definately get on our nerves knocking on our door everyday letting us know we're breaking the rules.
my moms on the commitee now so she still kinda does whatever she wants to but tried to be discrete about it so theres no drama. thats all we need is some desperate housewives shit on our block. (i love that show! haha)
okay well while im sitting here baking in my oven im going to put together some music for this sunday's church. my now exbf is doing the sermon and i had offered to take care of the music. he's really busy anyway, figured it'd help him out.
night all.
manda
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